Go for launch...go for launch...HOLD!

Friends and family,

I had a whole entire blog post set to go yesterday, but was holding off because I had an additional appointment added this week to see the transplant team.

We were really almost set to “go for launch” for being listed on the heart transplant waiting list.  We’d checked all the “pre-launch” inspections/tests and had a few more items to check off and then I’d have the green light to be listed.

Due to an unforeseen lab test result, my ride on the “Transplant Waiting List Rocket” has been put on hold. I now have to take care of another health issue prior to being listed for a transplant. 

In the meantime, I’ve had 2 new medications that will hopefully make me feel better and give me a bit more energy and most importantly, increase my appetite.  Otherwise, I’ll have to add an appetite stimulant to my ever-growing list of meds.  I have lost my appetite over the last few months, and subsequently, more weight than I needed to lose.  (I know….usually not a problem for most of us women).

In other news:

We began our school year on Tuesday and our school day sure was a lot longer than I intended.  It didn’t help that the teacher got a late start, had to take more breaks etc.  We’ll get it figured out, but in the meantime, thankfully my students are very adaptable.

That’s all for now.  I’ll be busy with meeting new specialists,  possibly getting more tests, (maybe more meds) etc.  but won’t have much news to report for a bit.  Thank you for the continued prayers, meals, texts, messages and just plain LOVE!

The song I share today seems appropriate because when I found out the news yesterday my first thought was:  Seriously?  I should have just flown to Italy with my sister next week as planned!  What’s the point of all this?  You’re kidding me God right? 

To my friends on the fence or those who don’t believe at all…Yes…even Christians have their doubts in times of hardship.  But then, something happens…something washes over you that is unexplainable…and you just…know.  You know that this too, has a purpose…even if you don’t understand it.  Even if it makes absolutely no sense whatsoever why you’d have to go through this.  You KNOW you aren’t in control and it’s just going to be an easier ride if you surrender yourself to Him. 

And after my internal tantrums to God, that’s what I did…again.  Keep up those prayers, my warriors. 

Your sister in Christ.

You’re not shaken

by Phil Stacey

I am sinking in a river that is raging
I am drowning, will I ever rise to breathe again
I wanna know why, I just wanna understand
Will I ever know why? How could this be from Your hand?

When every little thing that I have dreamed would be
Just slips away like water through my hand
And when it seems the walls of my belief
Are crashing down like they're all made of sand
I won't let go of You now because I know
Oh, You're not shaken

I am trembling in the darkness of my own fear
All the questions with no answers still grip me while I'm here
And I may never know why, oh, I may not understand
But I will lift up my eyes and trust this is Your plan

When every little thing that I have dreamed would be
Just slips away like water through my hand
And when it seems the walls of my belief
Are crashing down like they're all made of sand
I won't let go of You now because I know
Oh, You're not shaken

When I am in the valley of the shadow of death
You're not shaken, You're not shaken
You're right here beside me and You have never left
Oh, You're not shaken, You're not shaken

When every little thing that I have dreamed would be
Just slips away like water through my hands
And when it seems the walls of my belief
Are crashing down like they're all made of sand

I won't let go of You now because I know
Oh, You're not shaken, oh, You're not shaken
Oh, You're not shaken, oh, You're not shaken